Today's epistle forces us to take an honest look at ourselves. St. Paul tells us the blatant truth: The good things I want to do? I don't do them. And the evil I want to avoid? That's what I do. What a mess I am.
What a mess I am! And in admitting that truth, I take the first step toward becoming what I am meant to be - my own, REAL self, whole, joyful, generous, kind, forgiving, and ready to face whatever life throws at me. I'm a sinner. I mess up. And that's why I need my Heavenly Dad. I need His total, unconditional love. I need to know He loves me no matter how much of a mess I make. Honesty leads to the truth of love, mercy, forgiveness and a
chance to start over (and over, and over!)
Thankfully, St. Paul's message doesn't end with the mess. He goes on to give us the good news - the best news we could ever receive in this life. God has made a way for us to be reconciled, forgiven, to start over. Jesus Christ is our Heavenly Dad's gift to the whole world. Through Jesus we have access to God, who takes us in His arms and cleans up the mess. Every time. The Psalmist says, "His mercy is everlasting."
Is it time for a new beginning? Need some everlasting mercy? I do, every day. The place to start is admitting that we are a mess.
Dad, I messed up.
Do you see the penetrating, serious look in His eyes? Sorry for your mess, sad for the pain it has caused? And then the look of intense, incredible, unconditional love? Truth and love go together, always.
Brothers and sisters:
I know that good does not dwell in me, that is, in my flesh.
The willing is ready at hand, but doing the good is not.
For I do not do the good I want,
but I do the evil I do not want.
Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it,
but sin that dwells in me.
So, then, I discover the principle
that when I want to do right, evil is at hand.
For I take delight in the law of God, in my inner self,
but I see in my members another principle
at war with the law of my mind,
taking me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.
Miserable one that I am!
Who will deliver me from this mortal body?
Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord.
I am a Catholic wife, mom and grandma. In 1995, after Bible college and a few years as an Evangelical Missionary, I was received into the Church at the Easter Vigil. These are my personal musings on Scripture, prayer, and living close to Jesus.